My gosh.. Have you seen today's episode of A* Planner? I was stunned. Didn't really know that Singaporeans can be so romantic as well.

Today's episode:
A marriage was on the rocks cos the wife felt that the hubby is 'wood'. He doesn't show emotions, he doesn't share with his wife. So much so that the wife felt that that is a one-sided marriage. She cannot take it and wanted to leave.

But the hubby loves her. He doesn't want her to leave him. So he enlisted the help of this program. Through a friend, the wife went to the place where the surprises were. Teddy bears were laid out along the pier. Lots of them. Why the pier? Cos the wife loves the sea.

In each teddy bear was a message from the hubby to the wife. Expressions of his love for her. Reason he did this? Cos he knows he doesn't say his appreciation and love for his wife enough.

The teddy bears led the wife to a table set for candle-light dinner. The hubby appeared. Next surprise: Dark chocolate hand-made by the hubby for the wife. Reason he did this: Cos the wife loves dark chocolate.

Next surprise: A hand-drawn comic of the wife, drawn by the hubby. He is not good at drawing but he takes lessons for it. Reason? The wife loves drawing and she always draws comics to cheer him up. This time, he wants to do the same thing for her.

The wife loves it.. Not only cos he did her favourites, but cos she knew this was difficult for his shy hubby to do. For an introvert hubby like hers to declare to the whole of Singapore through this program that he loves her..

Awwwwwww................

Argh.... Went to take a nap cos I was sneezing non-stop.. Then when I woke up, my left eye hurts.. Why? Ooww...

Negative energy; negative vibe. This is what I have been experiencing from people around me. Why are they so negative? Why do they keep saying that their lives suck? And the thing is, they keep complaining all day, everyday! Sorry, for those who think I am talking abt you. It is just that all these negative vibe is really getting to me.

Not that I have not been through that. The fact is, I had been through that. And hence I know it is not a good feeling. So why stay in that negative-ness? Get out of it and be free!

I had been through all that. Rebelling, rejecting, doubting God. It sucked big time. Looking back, I find myself damn stupid. I could have got out of that depression with just a prayer and I didn't. Stupid. If only I turn to God sooner, I could have gotten rid of all these stupid feelings of defeat.

Why do you doubt God? I dun understand. These people say that they love and trust God. But if you trust God, then why can't you be happy and contented? If you know God is good, then why so upset with life? Yes, life is not good in this messed-up world. Cos this world belongs to the prince of darkness. But you and I belong to the KING OF THE UNIVERSE. If you can't control your feelings, tell God n He will always set u free from all bondages.

No, correct that. He HAD ALREADY set us free from ALL bondages. We just have to BELIEVE it. Yes. I know it is not easy to believe. But which one would u choose? Be depressed and defeated, or be contented and free cos Someone is taking care of you?

Sobzzz sobzz sobz.... Princess Hours is ending... I dun wanna it to end!! It is such a good show... Why are Koreans, also Asians, so good at saying stuff?

I think Shaun is going to scold me again, after he read this post... Haiz...

I had my hair cut!!! n I look............. weird............... Why do I say that? Lemme tell you what the responses of those who've seen me are.

My sis: "Ok wat.. You look like Shaun!!"
Me: ...................................

My father: "You better not go out wif a ger, pple will think u are a lesbian/butch."
Me: *Sobzz*

My mum: "Wah.. Hmmm.... (pause 5 sec, looking at me) Ok la.."
Me: *Sob harder*

My bro: (takes one look at me n burst out laughing) "You better stay at home."
Me: "Open the window.. Lemme jump down."

I sent a photo via MMS to Shaun.
His reply: "Why you send me Weiwei's photo? Send me yours..."
Me: "Lemme die.............."

My sister showed me a picture, say I look like him/it.
The green man, not the crocodile.

Found this picture... Wahahahaha... Can guess which one is me??

Answer:

(front row: second from the right)

Haiz....

What should I do? It's been 2 months since I changed my hairstyle. It had brought forth good comments initially. But now, within 2 weeks, 3 people had told me that they prefered my old hairstyle. Short and funky. But that hairstyle required regular trimming and styling everyday! The feeling of wax on your hair is like.. eeeww!! Esp when I sweat... N as a teacher, I can't afford to be too funky..

Then, now this hairstyle, I have to 'iron' it everytime before I go out. To make it straight. If I dun do that, I will look just like my Pri Sch days, which I truly hate. I'm waiting for it to grow longer, so I can straighten it. But hor... What if I straighten le, then not nice?! Then will waste my money!! Argh!! What to do? Stick to this hair or back to the short one?! Argh!!

VS

On Sunday, 12 Nov 2006, there was this speaker who came to our church to preach. Pastor Joseph. I found that his message, though short and funny too, was powerful.

He talked about the Word of God. That Jesus is the Word. If you feel dry spiritually, you should go to the Word of God. The distance between you and Jesus is the same distance between you and the Word.

He dared us to try something at home. Go home, turn to any page of the Bible, believe that God will speak to you and you will find Him speaking to you through the Word.

And that was what I did. I was 'separated' from God for months. Not that I didn't try to get back, but somehow I couldn't. But that night, I wanted really to get back cos life without God sucks big time. SO I tried what this pastor dared us to do.

I held my Bible in my hands. I dared not open it, for fear that God will not speak to me. Then, I prayed. I told God I want Him to speak to me. I stuck my index finger in my Bible. Before I opened it, I told God I will believe that He will speak to me. So I opened it.

And I found it. I found what God wants to tell me. Isaiah 54. Verses 4, 7 and 8 hit me. God, He spoke that night. He spoke to me. Isn't it marvellous? Isn't wonderful? That this God still remembers me and talks to me.

Now, I m not afraid to move forward. Last time, I was afraid cos I know many challenges will await me. But now, I have faith that God is with me and will walk me through. With Him by my side, I have ntg to fear. But this doesn't mean that, poof!, all my troubles will be gone. They will still be there but I can face them now, not alone, but with a God who never fails.

Last night, an insercuity issue arised in me again and I quarrelled with someone. Felt scared cos I know this issue, if not dealt with properly, will bring me down again. So I prayed. I need God badly. So I did the same thing. I held the bible, prayed, believed and opened the bible. And that passage I read spoke to me AGAIN. Thank you Father..

For you out there who is reading this entry, I encourage you to do the same. For it truly works and God is always waiting to speak to His children.

I'm going to the Philippines for mission.

Nothing to post, so post pictures of cute stuff...

I've saved the best for last...

(guess who this is..)