Thursday, September 27, 2007

Dunno why.. But for the past few days, the past has been haunting me...

6:02 PM

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

To keep Your lovely face
Ever before my eyes
This is my prayer
Make it a srong desire
That in my secret heart
No other love competes
No rival throne survives
And I serve only You


Dear Lord Jesus,
let this be my one desire. Create in me a hunger for You so intense that it can never be satisified till I fill it with You.

8:09 PM

Monday, September 17, 2007

Tired.. I am very tired.. Tons of things to do and yet no mood and energy to do...

Supposed to be doing an essay now. But having writer's block.. (But hey, why no writer's block for blogging?) Ha...

Saw my sister in school today. She said I look exhausted. Went to the toilet to have a look. Yup. I do look exhausted. Super big dark eye-rings... And I saw a tiny pimple popping up.. Sigh...

And yet, Mel said I look better.. Siao..



Sigh... I used to look quite good..

This was me 3 months ago with Samantha...

10:56 PM

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Again... Por is hospitalised..
Again... It is due to her chest pain...
Again... It is a Friday...
Again... It is after midnight that she got a bed...
Again... It is Juan and I staying overnight...

But not again will I lose my faith and trust in God...
Not again will I doubt Him...



12:21 AM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Was chatting with a friend on MSN just now. He made a very striking statement that I hope I can remember for life.

"When there is a great painting, people become in awe of it. But I rather be in awe of the painter Himself. "

This, I will strive to do. I should not be awed and be amazed by the great works God has done. Why should I? I should not be alarmed by this cos I should know for a fact that these works are nothing to God. He who had done great miracles in the past can do the excat same things since He is the same yesterday, today and forever...

I should give glory to His name instead and be excited not at His works but at who He is...

Okie! Lemme put my faithless past behind and strive to know God more!

6:51 PM


A new blogskin... a colourful one... A bit tired of the orangish n dull one..

Hey, some friends said that they cannot see my blog entries in this new one.. Is it true? Gimme feedback, ya?

4:33 PM

Monday, September 10, 2007

a photo taken during CNY this year

An update for those of you who are reading my blog, Por is much better now and can be discharged tomorrow!!!

God is good! Actually, come to think of it, I think God must be pretty upset that we were so lacked of faith to believe that God can actually heal Por. Though we were not giving God up or blaming Him, we were all like preparing for the worst, instead of having the faith to believe that Por will be healed. Sigh... Oh ye of little faith!

But God is good. I rememeber something I read during those weeks of scary moments... "It's not how great our faith is, it is how great our God is."

Sang this song yesterday in church. Spoke right to my heart, esp the words I've highlighted...



I Simply Live For You
by Hillsong United

Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live, I simply live for You

Chorus:
As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live, I simply live for You

11:35 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Putting our Faith No Matter What
September 1st, 2007 5 Views
http://www.christianhub.com.sg/CHblog/2007/09/01/putting-our-faith-no-matter-what/

Our church is currently doing a series on Daniel and it’s always fascinating how God can use stories that you think you already know it all, to teach you or remind you of things. Recently, we were reading Daniel 3 and I was reminded of the faith of Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego.

King Nebuchadnezzar had created a golden image and demanded that everyone bowed down and worship it. The Bible says that these 3 men, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego refused. According to the king’s (small caps in purpose) decree, anyone that refused to bow will be thrown into the fire. Here is the response of these 3 faithful men of God:

Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, ‘O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnance, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if He does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.’ ”- Dan 3:16- 18

This is what faith is all about. Faith is what remains after all the acts and masks is stripped away. It is easy to say that we put our faith in God when things are going well, it is quite another thing when things around us start crumbling and we find ourselves on shaky ground. These 3 men were willing to put their lives where their faith is. They don’t merely profess to trust in God, then act it out and stake everything on their conviction. I wonder how many of us Christians in this present day and age of developed countries, who face no obvious persecution, can respond in the same manner as these men did.

But more than that, there is another small group of words that has ministered to me more than this is the words that come after their declaration of faith. It is the simple but so powerful words, ‘Even if God does not…’ I believe that these words alone is powerful enough to disarm any weapon that the enemy throws at us. While we trust God to deliver us from various trials and tribulations, we also need to recognize that God does not work within the boundaries of our limited understanding. Sure, we hope to get cured of cancer and who doesn’t want that unreasonable boss to be removed? But sometimes, our most desperate prayers do not get answered the way we hope. But we must still continue to do what is right.

Shadrach, Meschah and Abednego demonstrated this by saying that even if God does not save their physical bodies from the fire, it will still not change the fact that God knows best and that their faith in Him remains unwavering.

Are you going through some period of testing right now? Is the answer that you are praying for seemingly not coming? Perhaps we can learn a thing or two from these 3 men to not let our faith or actions be dependent on how things work out. Rather, continue to do what is right regardless, and God who sees these acts of faith will credit it unto you as righteousness.

Now complete this sentence if it is applicable to you as your present moment, “Even if God does not deliver me, I will ….” and ask God for strength to see it through regardless of what our physical eyes see.

12:52 AM