Oh my goodness...
You have absoutely no idea how I spent my last 5 days... A serious (n I mean really really serious) bad case of food poisoning.
How serious?
Let's just say it involved 2 jabs, average of 16 toilet-going PER day and 4 days of stomach discomfort.
You can say I just dun ever ever ever want it to happen again...

Just got back from Pastor's place. Was doing the editing of videos from mission trip.

Looking through the videos, reflecting back, I realised I missed those 10 days in the Philippines. Though things there were not as comfortable as that in Singapore, I had no worries at all. I didn't have to worry about anything, for I firmly believed God will take care of it.

Unprepared for giving seminar? I believed God will tell me what to say and He did. Unprepared for sharing? I believed God will give me the words and He did. Typhoon? I believed God will protect us and He did. Totally clueless about what the program will be like? I believed God will lead and He did.

It seems to me that we were invincible then. Nothing could bring us down. We totally knew what it means by "If God is for us, who can be against us." We woke up every morning, feeling today we will see God work.

But

why had that invinciblity seem to disappear once I got back to Singapore? It couldn't be that God exists only in the Philippines. He is God of the universe. It was as if once I returned to Singapore, I dun believe God will work anymore.

Why? Is it cos of the comfortable life in Singapore, I have all I need and hence, I believe I dun need Him? And hence, I rely on Him less? He is real!! Jing Er, you had seen Him work and so why do you doubt?

Oh God, feel me with Your power again. Help me regain my identity in you! I am a Princess. My Father is the Almighty, the King of all Kings and nothing, absoutely nothing, can bring me down!!!!

Many things..

However, I've come to realise things come and go. So I dun really wana wish for anything. As Serene said, "Everything is not real."

Dunno why. But through events and conversations wif friends, this passage keeps poppng up in my mind. I used to try to memorise this passage to give me a 'guideline' to prepare myself when Jesus is coming. Ever saw this tagline "Jesus is coming. Act busy." ?

Matthew 24: 3-14
3As Jesus was sitting on the Mount of Olives, the disciples came to him privately. "Tell us," they said, "when will this happen, and what will be the sign of your coming and of the end of the age?"
4Jesus answered: "Watch out that no one deceives you. 5For many will come in my name, claiming, 'I am the Christ,[a]' and will deceive many. 6You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. 7Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. 8All these are the beginning of birth pains.

9"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. 10At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, 11and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. 12Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, 13but he who stands firm to the end will be saved. 14And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.

Now, as I read this again, instead of getting excited cos what is written in the Bible almost 2000 years ago is happening, I am scared. Am I ready? Will I stand firm to the end?