Just got back from Pastor's place. Was doing the editing of videos from mission trip.

Looking through the videos, reflecting back, I realised I missed those 10 days in the Philippines. Though things there were not as comfortable as that in Singapore, I had no worries at all. I didn't have to worry about anything, for I firmly believed God will take care of it.

Unprepared for giving seminar? I believed God will tell me what to say and He did. Unprepared for sharing? I believed God will give me the words and He did. Typhoon? I believed God will protect us and He did. Totally clueless about what the program will be like? I believed God will lead and He did.

It seems to me that we were invincible then. Nothing could bring us down. We totally knew what it means by "If God is for us, who can be against us." We woke up every morning, feeling today we will see God work.

But

why had that invinciblity seem to disappear once I got back to Singapore? It couldn't be that God exists only in the Philippines. He is God of the universe. It was as if once I returned to Singapore, I dun believe God will work anymore.

Why? Is it cos of the comfortable life in Singapore, I have all I need and hence, I believe I dun need Him? And hence, I rely on Him less? He is real!! Jing Er, you had seen Him work and so why do you doubt?

Oh God, feel me with Your power again. Help me regain my identity in you! I am a Princess. My Father is the Almighty, the King of all Kings and nothing, absoutely nothing, can bring me down!!!!