2 words that woke me up from my 'slumber'.

Been lazy in seeking God for a few months. Used to be very fervent in talking to Him, seeking His will, doing His work. But as time went on, as more distractions came, I gradually began to forget God. Not that I had completely forgotten who He is, but more like I had forgotten that He wants to spend time with me.

I said before that I am my real me when I am in Jesus. When I 'soak' myself with Jesus, I am the real Jing Er. I can 'feel' it. I do not know how to put it into words, but I just know that I am the real me when I am in Christ, not the weakling Jing Er, not the insecure Jing Er, not the lost Jing Er, who seems to fail or stumble in almost everything she does in life when she relies on her own strength.

In His presence, that's when I am strong.

'Thanksgiving' and 'Favour'. These 2 words were the theme for our DG on Fri. And these 2 words stirred me up once again.

Fanny told us to have a session of thanksgiving; to thank God for the things He has done in our lives. At first, I was thinking that I have nothing to thank God for cos I have not been spending time with Him much. But as more people shared, my spirit began to stir inside me. And I began to think of all the great things that God had done and is still doing in my life. So ungrateful am I that I have taken all these things for granted! So slow of me to give thanks! So blind of me not to see how blessed I am!

Then, Shaun began to talk about the favour of God. Yes, indeed. As I heard all DGians' sharings, we all really do have the favour of God. Shalyn - gotten a job so fast upon graduation. Juan - a job that caters to all her needs. Avoni - got through the auditions for a role she wanted so much. Eric - potential clients who called him on their own without him looking for them. Shaun - God's assurances whenever he needs it. Me - my school results, my answerd prayers and so much more...

Once again, I feel so much loved.

No doubt I have failed God again and again and again by not keeping my promises to Him. But hey, my God is more interested in me than my promises.

No doubt I feel guilty and can't bring myself to face Him. But hey, it is not because of who I am but it is because of what He has done. It is not because of what I have done but it is because of who He is. He is God, whose love and faithfulness never fails. He has died so I might be free to worship.

Today, in church, I whispered, "Who am I?" and I heard His voice replying, "You are Mine."

And I want to praise You all my life!

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